The Gumball of Life


That moment it hit me, my whole life changed its course.

It went from a hollow place of pain, where nothing made sense, the days felt like meaningless tortures I would put myself through, to distract me from the agony of spending time with my dark thoughts. 

To an inconvenient convenient amount of surprises and challenges to defeat. 
Some of those that regenerate the death in your skin cells, provide you with outburst of adrenaline and oxytocin from the extra extent I would go, to love and respect myself. 

Speaking my mind, unfiltered of shame, suppression and conformism. What a release..

You will go through so many things in life, just like a gumball machine. This huge fishbowl of 97 cherry red coloured wrapped gums, except for those 3 green sour ones.

Life will throw both shit and diamonds at you. You have to recognise which is which to get closer to what's good for you. 

"This shall pass too.", as what's meant for you is out there and like our scent, it's no one else's, it tracks us down.

Enjoy the process in creation of your future!

The only difference here is the glass bowl. You can see when the greens are getting closer, but in life you need to trust, hold faith and patience for it to come to you when it's in due time.

The love you gain from believing in the numbers game is incredible, nothing bothers you anymore, you abund with Love to share and a spirit to learn from as many experiences as possible, with  understanding of not been able to live them all in our lifetime. 

See it as a way to prepare to whatever is order in your following course of time or your successors', if any.

A reverbed wave of happiness to the us in the future!
High school dropout, who emigrated from Italy to London in 2019. Spiritual being who confidently made her way to a life of contentment, freedom and individualistic thinking, in an illusive world.

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